It has been a while since I last posted. "Thank you" to those of you who missed me and asked if everything was ok.
I just made a decision (perhaps unconsciously) to be more present in the moment.
I could spend hours a day on the computer, justifying this time knowing my husband, too, was on his computer...playing solitaire.
But we were living separate lives, not connecting, even if we were in the same room.
He would call out, "I love you!"
I would respond, "I love you too!"
He would repeat, "I LOVE you!"
I would respond, "I LOVE you too!"
and this would continue until I made eye contact and said, "I REALLY LOVE YOU!"
Then he would smile and say, "That's what I wanted!"
You see, it's not what we necessarily say...or hear...it's that moment of connection that requires us to be PRESENT.
So I'm spending more time being present...not just being there....and less time at the computer, being somewhere else.
Being there for Him.
Being there for my husband.
Being there for myself.
I will certainly post again. Being present doesn't stop the ideas swirling around in my head. Ideas that have no other outlet than right here.
We are in a season that demands some major adjustments. Maybe that is why I sense the need to be present right now.
For whatever reason, that may be more clear as time passes, I choose to be right here, right now.
My blogging life will have to get in line.